Wednesday, September 28, 2011

My turn

Sorry, everyone. I have been in the hospital for two nights with food poisoning. Slowly recovering, but I feel horrible. Until later, take care.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Lunch with Melanie and Mylee!

I had lunch with Melanie and baby Mylee today! It was such a great time! She is six months old now! I can't believe it!


Thursday, September 22, 2011

Evan Thomason

Though you may not know them, please send comforting thoughts to the family of 10-yr-old Evan Thomason, who died this morning from cancer.

Also, if you ever can spare a few dollars, St. Jude Children's Research Hospital is a wonderful place to donate your money.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

I don't get it.

Why must people drive twice as fast in the rain as they do on a dry day?? Can they not comprehend that this is dangerous?? I have had to dodge so many crazy drivers today!

Monday, September 19, 2011

Susie has reached her limit.

I am nearly mad, I think. And when I say "mad," I mean that in the "insane" way. The last two weeks have driven me to the brink. I had a complete emotional breakdown, beginning on Thursday night. My poor mother...she has been great to help me. The stress of everything finally got to me. But, hey...I think I did pretty good, considering that this has been building intensely for five years and slowly for 20. I will be fine, but I when I started crying on Thursday night it was really hard to stop...and I didn't, for the most part. I just took breaks.

So, I am working today and tomorrow, and then I am taking three glorious days off. I have been asked not to do anything...and I am going to try to comply with that. At least, I will not do anything work or dissertation related. I desperately need to get some new clothing, though. Ah. Good times. (Lots of sarcasm here. I hate to shop.)

Anyway, you may not hear from me much...and, then again, you might. It just depends on my mood. This is an unusually rough time in my life. I don't like asking for help from coworkers/friends or taking a break from my work, because it makes me feel useless and weak. I mean, people have gone through much harder things. Every time I start feeling bad, I try to remind myself of the real tragedies in the world or in the past. It helps a little.

Sporadically yours,
Susie

Friday, September 16, 2011

A new blog...

Well, new for me, anyway. I am sure half the world knows about this one, but I didn't discover it until I looked up Lebovitz's new book on Amazon. I really like his blog, though, and the photos are gorgeous!

David Lebovitz: Living the Sweet Life in Paris

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Check out my office!

The painting is finished and the books are on the shelves again. My desk is not as neat as I like it (aka: sparse), but it is getting there! Still, I love working in an old house!

Here are "BEFORE" photos:






Here are the "AFTER" photos:



Monday, September 12, 2011

Crazy Weekend

As you know (if you read the last post), my dad had to go back into the hospital. He started having chest pains while at the doctor's office, and the doctor sent him straight to the ER. I swear, we should have our own room out there, now!

Any trip to the ER with dad these days is a scary event. His body is so fragile, and I always am terrified that "today is the last day." Yet, the strangest thing always happens when we are in the ER. We laugh about everything. I guess it is nervousness, but there isn't any anxiety in the jokes. We tell funny stories, make fun of the fact that we should own the hospital, tell each other we love one another about a million times, etc. This time, we were, once again, in the same ER room we are always in, and I suggested that it become the "Dave" room, complete with photos and memorabilia and "Crazy Date" blasting on speakers. (For those of you who don't know, "Crazy Date" was my dad's Top 40 song that he wrote when he was only 15.)

The news was both good and bad. I am not going to go into it, because it really makes me sad and angry. (Yes. Angry. This is the first time I am coming to terms with that emotion in this case.) We came home on Friday afternoon, and I am tying to focus on the positive, to keep dad as happy and laughing as he can be, forever how long he is with us. He is on two new medicines--very new and very advanced. So, those are helping oxygen get into his heart and is taking away any pain he might feel. We went out for coffee twice this weekend, and he had a blast. He is still walking a little, too, so that is excellent. Meanwhile, we are just enjoying each other.

I don't mean to imply that he is on death's doorstep. I am just saying that we are appreciating every day that we have.

I hate heart disease. My dad did everything he could to help himself--but the body has its own ideas. Sometimes, your body acts on its own. But, for anyone out there who can change things for themselves--who can start to eat better, move a little bit more, etc.--please do so. Think of your family. I have been living with this heart condition of my father's (because when a family member is sick, we are all sick) since I was fifteen. It has been really hard. We have been through so much. I am tired, but I am grateful that my father lives during this time. If any of this had happened twenty years ago, he would be long gone.

So, yes. I have a lot to be thankful for. But my dad had a lot to do with his resilience, too. He exercised and ate right, just to give himself whatever advantage he could. And it has really helped. So, even if it is a struggle, please do the right thing and take care of your body. Never give up. Even little things make a HUGE difference. Eat more veggies; eat more fresh food; move around. You don't have to run a marathon. You can do little things, like park your car far from an entrance to a mall or just take a walk around your block. Everything counts.

But not only that. You need to spend time with those you love. And I mean REALLY spend time with them. Listen to them. Find out who they are. You may not like everything about them, but they are part of you...and, therefore, they ARE you. Don't just sit in front of the television in silence or argue about stupid things. Make your time together count.

I am lucky. I am an adult who has not lost a parent yet. So many people cannot say the same thing. I think about other friends of mine, whose son is losing his best friend to cancer. The boy is ten-years-old. I can't imagine that kind of agony. The child's name is Evan, and he is on hospice care now. I don't know him, and neither do you, probably, but let's pray for him/send him good energy anyway.

I also send prayers/positive thoughts to the children born after 9/11, whose fathers were killed in the attacks. Diane Sawyer interviewed several of them last night. Wow. Talk about amazing children. They have so many gifts and so much to give. I can't wait for them to do so many wonderful things.

Anyway, I have gotten terribly off track in this post, but it is the best I can do today! Hang in there, everyone, and thanks for the good wishes.

Friday, September 09, 2011

So tired.

I was at the hospital all day yesterday with my dad. Please send good thoughts/prayers his way.

Tuesday, September 06, 2011

Fumes!

The fumes in my office are still out of control, so I am, once again, working at the bookstore. I don't mind it so much, especially now that I have finished all of the changes to our proofs. Not being able to have access to my usual software has been an adjustment. I don't have remote access from home just yet, and the university library is the only place in town that offers the Adobe software I need...so, with the Labor Day holiday and all...well, you get it: I couldn't progress! UGH! I hate having to be flexible when I know things are due. I just have to tell myself, "Get over it, Susie!"

I am taking a mini-break right now, so I thought I would write a quick blog post. It is a "LIVE" post! :) See...



Here I am (well, okay...not me, exactly, but my computer), at my favorite back corner table at Barnes and Noble, writing on my blog! I have my first Pumpkin Spice latte of the season (yay, Fall!!!), and I am typing away. Yes, I know it isn't that interesting...but it is all I have for you right now. :)

So, until later, everyone have a great day!

Monday, September 05, 2011

The rain is falling!

This weather is totally crazy! We have had almost seven inches of rain here today! The wind is blowing really hard and the lights keep flickering...ugh. I am so afraid of falling trees, and these conditions are perfect for helping one to topple over.

I have taken the last couple of days off...and it has been a beautiful thing. :)

What have I been doing in this blissful nothingness? Reading. Drinking coffee. Staying up late. Sleeping late. Watching movies. Meeting with friends. Yay!

But, back to the books...what am I reading? Well, I am finishing up a reread of Gail Carriger's Soulless (MyVampFiction.com review due soon). I love Carriger's books and it has been fun to reread this one. I haven't finished the series yet, either, so I look forward to the rest.

I am also reading Becoming Jane Eyre.



I am reading this particular book for the internet class...I really like it so far, but I like bio-fiction anyway. I am trying to find a good bio-fic on Lord Byron...so, if any of you have ideas, please pass them along!

I really need to get cracking on the dissertation reading this week....ugh. I have really enjoyed the time off. Too bad there isn't more of it!

Sunday, September 04, 2011

I just read this:

The book Persuasion is the "thinking reader's Pride and Prejudice." What think we of this statement??

Friday, September 02, 2011

I wish I had something exciting to tell you...

...but I don't. :)

This week has flown by! I have been working from home, but we are in production and I have been super busy. I heard that my office looks great (the new paint and all), but I haven't been by to see it yet. I plan to make my way over there on Sunday, if I can. I need to make changes to the proof copies this weekend...which means that I might take a little comp time next week, if I can.

Other things I have been doing:
1. I finished a draft of my conference paper. I am not at all satisfied with it, but I decided to turn it in to my most amazing dissertation director--a.k.a. the one who pulls me out of the proverbial "Castle of Doubt" (oh, yes...I so just made a Pilgrim's Progress reference). He sent me some really helpful feedback, so I am ready to go back to it now.

2. Reading more Kresley Cole... :)

3. Watching Dallas, season 7. (Oh, yes...I am so addicted to that show. I bought up through season 6, and my friend/boss gave me season 7 for my B-day. Score! You can go back to my 2005 entries to see where this fascination began...)

4. Celebrating with friends and family. Last Sunday, I had a wonderful lunch with my cousin, Laura. Monday, I spent a quiet birthday at home, though mom and dad and I did go out for a nice dinner. Tuesday night, I had dinner with my parents, Donna, Mac, Justin, Vicky, and Ava. Then, last night (not birthday related), my cousin Jeff had my parents and I over to his new place for dinner. HE COOKED A ROAST!!! And, it was FANTASTIC!!! Well done, Jeff!! So impressed! I don't even know if I had cooked at roast at his age! I include it in the "Celebrating" section because it was such a great time. :)


AND: This is a long weekend!!! I am super excited! I am going to take it off. I never do that, but I think it is important. (Well, I mean, I will be taking it off until I have to go in and make proof changes...but that will only be a half-day thing, I think...and I will comp it later.) I plan to read romance novels and watch movies and all of that good stuff! That way, next week, I can start fresh, with a lot of energy. I will be revising the heck out of my conference paper and pirate article then, doing production edits, starting on edits/photo searches for material in the next issue, and working on my next dissertation chapter. Good times! (HaHa.)

Anyway, what I am saying is that things will be super busy. But that is fine, because I will be refreshed. (I hope.)